Event of today

 THANK YOU to everyone that had stood by me ever since my ordeal started the support has really been AMAZING l and my kids really APPRECIATE l have not be able to do any writing for some time but  l can pour my heart out .Where do l start from ok got you am starting from the every end which is today's activity.Words cannot describe it  for the  first time in this my predicament,today was the day l felt the most nervous my heart was beating so fast that i thought it was going to stop at any moment but lo and  be thou it's still walking but as well as  it should be am falling deeply into depression .The effect the whole situation is having on my kids is most traumatising, on Friday went to collect my kids from school and find out my daughter was in front of her class weeping and was been cuddled with two of her teacher getting close to her asked what the problem was and she said MUMMY THIS WHOLE THING IS TOO MUCH FOR ME as a mother l felt like swepping the whole thing away but is not in hand to make it go away.All l have to do is to keep calm and remain strong for them but it is really difficult .